my need is you

I wish im doing something that would distract me than thinking of you. i need that. i need not to think about you. i desperatally, need it.

I cant bear waking up every morning and knowing that youre not around. knowing that youre not with me. knowing that we wont be the same anymore.

I screwed up, i know. but im trying to mend everything back. im trying hard. its just that i need you, i need you so badly.

awakening

And I've been tumblr-ing all day. haha really, i did. since myspace is a no no for now. well most of it because I've deleted it, yes i did.

WHY? i have some of my own reasons :)

Lets put it this way, today is such a fucked up day for me. since last night actually. well at least, i had a nice dream to remember, aww.

So far yes, it is a fucked up day. i almost broke up with my boyfriend, or already did. which I'm certain we did not, yet. heh, i have no idea myself since my brain is a no no as well. some things he said made me melt haha really and i love him, a lot. like a fat girl loves her cake haha. I'm a bit devastated but fuck it I'm not gonna show.

And so i woke up at like, 1230? haha yeah i did. and i had a brunch so lunch is one of my no No's for today too. i woke up early yesterday and i woke up late today. i have no fixed time of waking up since i don't have any plans ahead of me. unless if i do so i do have a fix time of waking up, only for the day, : )

So far i don't have any plans yet. so I'll just sit at home pathetically zz.

or maybe i should read my book since i haven't start reading it.

I smell right now, i think i should get my shower. ttly bitches.

Loves, <3

so, arent you going to tell me?

that was too much

maybe its just me

Maybe i am

Maybe im not

Maybe i am just your sex toy

Maybe, just maybe im wrong.

HI

I'm obsessed, -.-

foundation

Some things happened in life with reasons. people might not actually see it, but eventually they will.

"Trust works in both ways, and sometimes it's about you learning how to trust as much as it is about him being trustworthy. it's a cliche` but its true: trust is the foundation of a relationship and without it, you really have nothing."

-A