my need is you

I wish im doing something that would distract me than thinking of you. i need that. i need not to think about you. i desperatally, need it.

I cant bear waking up every morning and knowing that youre not around. knowing that youre not with me. knowing that we wont be the same anymore.

I screwed up, i know. but im trying to mend everything back. im trying hard. its just that i need you, i need you so badly.

awakening

And I've been tumblr-ing all day. haha really, i did. since myspace is a no no for now. well most of it because I've deleted it, yes i did.

WHY? i have some of my own reasons :)

Lets put it this way, today is such a fucked up day for me. since last night actually. well at least, i had a nice dream to remember, aww.

So far yes, it is a fucked up day. i almost broke up with my boyfriend, or already did. which I'm certain we did not, yet. heh, i have no idea myself since my brain is a no no as well. some things he said made me melt haha really and i love him, a lot. like a fat girl loves her cake haha. I'm a bit devastated but fuck it I'm not gonna show.

And so i woke up at like, 1230? haha yeah i did. and i had a brunch so lunch is one of my no No's for today too. i woke up early yesterday and i woke up late today. i have no fixed time of waking up since i don't have any plans ahead of me. unless if i do so i do have a fix time of waking up, only for the day, : )

So far i don't have any plans yet. so I'll just sit at home pathetically zz.

or maybe i should read my book since i haven't start reading it.

I smell right now, i think i should get my shower. ttly bitches.

Loves, <3

so, arent you going to tell me?

that was too much

maybe its just me

Maybe i am

Maybe im not

Maybe i am just your sex toy

Maybe, just maybe im wrong.

HI

I'm obsessed, -.-

foundation

Some things happened in life with reasons. people might not actually see it, but eventually they will.

"Trust works in both ways, and sometimes it's about you learning how to trust as much as it is about him being trustworthy. it's a cliche` but its true: trust is the foundation of a relationship and without it, you really have nothing."

-A

Boy oh Boy

Its just my humble opinion

As a day gone by just like a waste. sure it was nothing but it felt like something.

Please oh please someone take me out tmr! this boredom strikes i can even leave the world because of it. so pathetic, aint i?

Anyway, loving playing cod by paramore.

Loves sweeties, <3

Move along

"Isn't it ironic when we said we wanted to start over but we still argue?"

it is.

But hey, what 's like without arguments eh?

The lights finally came through and the truth is all out.

Hard to swallow.

That's what we call tough luck.

To look back is plainly to rub it in, and move forward it requires a great amount of strength but to stay put will lead nowhere.

"It takes no time to fall in love but it'll take you years to know what love is."

Yes i can say that I'm just rather sentimental now but what the heck.

Just when you thought you've seen it all

You have no idea how long i didnt open my blogger. somehow aniq made me open it, haha. so after months and months of cracking my head, burning the midnight oil and get scolding from everyone, i finally finished my PMR. yes i know, im excited too. but i just pity those chinese-takes haha they had to stay at school until 3.10 pm and we had to go home at 10. there's a lot of diffrence, yknow. kesian wei.

I have no plans for the day but me and my girlfriends wanted to go dinner tonight at sunway pyramid so basically i'll be 'enjoying' at night then, : ). and so on with the plans.

So, lets start off with the last day of my pmr examnation which is on 13th october, 2009.
first off, i slept at 2 studying for my kh. yes i know, im actually studying kh. im amazed myself too. plus the night havent been so good sangat pun.
i woke up 6am for Gods sake to read more kh. just to make sure what read stays in my mind since i dont really study kh throughout the year, so yeah i deserve the sleepless night.

So, when i reached school, i was suprised to see zhi ying wearing a pinafore. you would be suprise as well if, you know what haha.
i wasnt really excited about this day actually because i was sleepy. i did my kh exam for only 50 minutes maybe and i spent the leftovers, sleeping haha.
as the pengawas took my paper, everyone was jumping around and relieved that pmr was over. except for those who's taking chinese, haha kesian.

I kesian to my boyfriend too because he had to stay at school, doing his finals and he had to go home as usual, which is at 1.10pm. kesian : ) .
I talked to eunice and hugged her for the last time. manalah tahu we tk jumpa anymore, haha : ) . and saj dengan his poyo-ness said, "weh aku nak blajar ah balik nanti. addmaths ke, chemisty ke..". lame, -___- .

And so i waited for my mum to pick me up frm school. and she sent me home straight away. booring. so i just online and texting aniq all the way sampai petang. i did some window online shopping as well. nothing seems so eye catching anyway. i'll just do my things for now. i'll write some more stuffs that is worth sinking your teeth, :) .

Loves, <3

my last breath

Life has been a tough one lately for me but im getting through :) my march test is over now, thank God. so i went to sunway pyramid yesterday with a few friends and we watched sex drive. its a little bit ala eurotrip with the expose of boobs and pussies, -__- somehow it was a nice movie about friendship and relationship, heh.
Im gonna make it short because im lazy to write, byebye

Loves, <3

my jamie oh my

we are silent as the rain falls

YEAY! march test is almost over, tmr is the last day so i online for a while. hm, so since march test is soon to over, i really really do want to catch a movie and have lunch at Itallianies or Carls Juniors and shop, yeah i said it right, shop.
I bought a dress last week at East India, it was floral-ey knee length dress. i liked it, it was decent :)
Holiday is coming soon enough and i've no idea how am i going to spend mine.
So i skipped my tuition yesterday to eat thosai at makbul. it was delicious, like reaalllly delicious. trust me, but it was so 'cekik darah' for a mamak.
I have to get ready for malligas tuition tonight since i havent take my shower, so toodie honey

Loves, <3

please oh please

I havent online for days. i havent blog for days. i miss blog. but i dont miss myspace. haha kerek sial, -__- anyways, im happy now. like happier than i used to. at least. so im busy, and really busy since march test is coming and PMR is just few months away, (8 months to be exact) so im preparing early. meaning i wont be blogging more often now, byebyes

loves <3

seeing is believing

I went home early from school today, had a little headache. plus, im hating school so whats the point me being thr riight? so zara called me last night, she was having problems, like a lot of problems, most of them are like mine but i let her talked yesterday just to ease off. somehow she was crying when she told me her problems and she said something that made me cried too, :/ something is wrong with me now, its like im fragile and vulnerable and sensitive or wtvr words that can relate to those. i even cried for no reason after my sister picked me up from school tadi, haha told jah im kinda sensitive now.

anyways, i kinda regret because i went home early today. i missed the subjects that is kinda important, but i hope i could catch up with some of my friends later on. so today i have tuition class at kasturi at 5 later. wan and amel is picking me up, i think. thats what i heard last. so im going to get some nappy nap now,

toodles honey, <3

satisfaction

Ahhh u'll never get enough of him, i love you robert pattinson!

kisses <3

fling thing

I was bored so yeah i snap a few pictures oh my floral skirt with a white tshirt. no shoes. totally no shoes at all okay. it wasnt a mini skirt or smthng, it was a pretty long skirt, i just fold them a little bit to make it short. i dont have nice legs so thr u go i admit. i edited the picture a little bit with the brightness and stuffs, the real picture doesnt look that way, ofcourse.

goodnight for now, loves <3><

my sign picture

Hahaaaa, he was bored so he did the sign picture or whatever u call that thing. i think its adorable and i love it haha. suprise suprise, tmr's valentines! im not celebrating it though. meaning im not excited puun, haha. fikri and i doesnt like valentines so its fine for both of us not celebrating it :)

So i asked my dad about my iPod, but he still refuse to give it back, bullock! i miss my baby iPod :( he said he forgot whr is it, but i think thats just an excuse. wait wait, what if its real? damn. im sooo asking for a new one. or maybe, just maybe, i could choose either a new iPod or A PAIR OF JIMMY CHOO! (excited excited) or maybe not, -__-

God i miss fikri a lot! like, a looooooot! :O in three weeks time then i can see him, i think. march test is coming, tuitions all over, plus mengaji and school, sigghhh* wait, why should i care about school? i dont even like school, haha. during bm just now, puan zaharah was discussing about out bm latih tubi. she explains like EVERY SINGLE THING! it was dull and boring but i just pretended and nodded just to make her think that im really listening. i like mrs shirley though, she's nice, somehow. she reminds me of my mother haha how awkward is that?

i miss Amel, and Ameer and lets just say i miss everyone okay? i miss I too, hmph. he still wont talk to me though, f f f! the missing feeling wont go away that easy u know. ouh and i miss fikri and my baby iPod tooooo! i miss my freedom, like seriously. hm and so i'll just end my pretty lame blog here,

kisses, byebye <3>

silent night

Haha i vained last night. i was suppose to study for latih tubi for the next day, but err i did something else AND i was waiting for my boyfriend to finish his homework. That shirt is not mine actually, its my sisters, and so does the heels. I just borrowed them and snap some pictures in them haha. Oh My God, i look fat ;o haha.
So the agama and kh latih tubi was pretty hard. i didnt do most of the questions, its just latih tubi right? Thank God today is the last day but hey, thrs more to come, -__- Now im reaallyy in the mood to shop, if i could, i would love to buy everything in mind but i cant really go out now because march test is coming and so on, sigh*
I lost my iPod a few days ago, at home. Somehow someone took it, and i know who's the person now, its my dad, -__- idk what was his motive to take my iPod and when i asked for it back, he just said, "let me think first". Questions was wandering in my mind such as, what do u need to think about? Why do u have to take my iPod? I miss my iPod like a pig misses his mud, (WHAAT?)
So i think this blog is long enough to for u to read and i'll end it here now byebye sweeties! <3

window internet shopping

Haha yes i did window internet shopping. as you can see the pictures below, i found them interesting and wanting them too. maybe for raya eh? haha. im bored and i've got no homework except for math that i've done it at school so, im cool 8D haha. sadly i have tuition later at 8pm but its good too because i can catch up some stories with Amel. i've been missing her though. im still not in good condition with E with ahh what the heck, who cares? so i've run out of ideas now and its time to take my shower and off to Amels place, bye for now.

my obssesion part 2

Heels; Jimmy Choo's.
Dress; Alexander McQueen
Cluth: Jimmy Choo's

equals to

awesome!

my love my life my obsession

They really looked good together, haih i want them like, reaalllyy badly ;o only the heels though, but if i had the chance to get it all, yes i would love to :)

my day today

Zeyra didnt come to school today, so pretty much i was alone in class. except ameer did accompanied me almost half of the day haha. we had math and bm latih tubi today. math was okay and bm was somehow hard :/ whatever that, i had tuition homeworks to be done, byebye!